Ok I havent blogged for a little while.. to be honest have been busy with work, kids and yes I even took a week off to get away from it all and spend quality time with the kids and my bf.

So here I am at work, which is unusually quiet, watching the rain and really starting to worry about the FH.  2 weeks and counting.  I wish I had a crystal ball and could see the outcome.  Maybe that wouldnt be  a good idea.  I dont know.  all I do know is that I want this to end.  I need to move on.  i have come so far on my own, and I want to continue this journey on this road.

Stbx being an a******* as

Hi All,

Dont Know where to start really.  I dont know why this has happened.  All i do know is that he's not hurting like I am.

11 years together, 6 married, and now i have lost my best freind.  As far as i know no one else is involved but they always say that you are the last to know so watch this space.

We met on holiday and being an essex girl didnt realise you should leave your holiday romances on holiday, not marry them and have 3 kids.  He is a Nottingham lad so made the move up here 10 years ago when i was expecting my 1st son.

Now its gone pear shaped he has all of his family around, his

What is happening to me?

 In a couple of weeks it will be a year since I split from my abusive ex-husband. Attended the last session of my course today which I will talk about in another blog. This is so much more scary!

 Got home at lunchtime to the post on the mat. 3 letters from the mortgage company (have 3 loans secured on the property) basically asking that all the arrears be paid in 7 days or they will start repossession and withdraw all my banking facilities.

The more I read, the more I feel myself losing control of my breathing; but I can't do anything to stop it. I am on hold with the