Back to reality

Well I'm back after 2 weeks away at our house in France and I'm feeling a bit down today...... It was fabulous to run away from my problems for a couple of weeks......   but I'm back and there all still here waiting for me. I was hoping that somehow it would all have gone away ........... I suppose I will just have to face facts and get on with sorting things out myself.

The first 2 days the x2b was there and it was hard but I smiled and was happy and I got through it. I kept thinking of all my wiki mates willing me on and your support was fantastic. (you know who you are) so

No much to report this week, I have spent as much time in the office as possible to avoid her.

This is her 2 week 'holiday', even though she is out of work now. She was going away to family but having fallen out with them all she is back at home. At least I am seeing the children who are being great. Who knows what they make of it all.

Father in law has ben staying this week as well to add to the fun, sharing a room with his daughter (ie stbx). Don't think that is quite normal and what do the children think? Daughter had the 'adult lessons' in phse last term so who knows?

Main issue has

I'm feeling rather sad. I'm back at work tomorrow after 7 weeks off with depression and feel quite apprehensive.

After weeks of yes/no yoyo my husband arranged for us to have a chat about getting back together. He cancelled 90 mins before our meeting saying he wasn't in the mood to chat but if I was feeling horny then he'd pop round.

I have so had enough and feel crushed. Why does he mess me about like this?

Why do I let him?

He's said me and the kids can stay in the house so long as i pay the bills and half the mortgage. kind of him!

I've decided that i'm going to step down from my job as a