My wedding anniversary......

Hi gorgeous Mr Blogman and wiki pals..

im dreading this week...why ?? because its my wedding anniversary friday...

i remember our last one, heaven, lovely dinner, lovely lovely wine....lovely summers even, and lovely restuarant....... 

little did i know a year later, the barsteward would have upped and had an affair..

what am i going to do on friday ?

got the day off wk, simply cant go in, work reminds me of him enough !! let alone on friday !!!

ok, well you know me !! and my love for my car so booked MY H in for MOT 10am...which will take approx 45 mins then hope to go

i dont write blogs normally but just wanted to talk really , excuse the grammar there isnt any  lol ! just so you lot know i`ve  moved out of my family home about a month or so ago and into my flat

i feel so free now perhaps too free im loving my space but miss the structure in my life ! that i suppose is to be expected after 20yrs was the weddding annivesary on the 13th number 20 it would have been !!! was fine wiv that day thought i was going to be morbid  and sad but no quite the opposite so ive excepted that it over !!! phew  another hurdle done

im filing for divorce now and hav the

Or should i say why cant i die?

    sorry if i sound so low, but im having an awful time at the moment. The reason i cant die  is because of my kids,they have got a crappy mother, who doesnt give a sh.t about them,so therefore i have to be strong for them. trouble is i dont want to be strong any more,i have had enough, even after having had a heart attack, my so called family and friends still dont care enough to ring, just to see if im alright,so i have to carry on on my own. this is my only outlet, i do try going onto the forums,but i have no confidence,so i watch for a few minutes,then