Woh cant believe I have not updated my blog for over a week slacking...

Bit bored tonight it is a Wednesday I am usually seeing my son on Wednesdays but had someone coming around to change the locks tonight so would have been too late.

Asked ex if I could see him on Thursday in stead she said no she was busy....yeah right busy doing nothing. Oh well got him Fri Sat and Sun so all good.

I have been carrying on with the gym and really enjoy it, I think it is good to keep myself busy I am either in the gym or seeing my son during the week.

The ex chosen to go to the CSA as she asked me for more

So..

After all the upset I finally get to take J & G on holiday for 9 days...  and we are off to Morzine (French Alps) for rafting, climbing, pony trecking and a whole load of fun.

It will be difficult, no Gill.....

Am sure it will take me a while yet.  Tough to switch off the feelings when you are still in love.. 

But I have 2 reasons.... J..... and......G....

Isn't life beautiful?

It certainly is... speak

After yesterdays glimmer of hope, I think i've gone and blown it...... again.  How stupid am I!

I tried so hard but this morning after a full ten hours of relentless dreams about a happy ending. I went and bloomin text him, not just once .... three times in a row.!!!!   So angry with myself now ... why dont I take my own advice ...Why cant I learn to be patient, back off and just let things happen.

 I think its because everyone, at work, at home and my social circle, expect me to be the one in control, the one who sorts things out ..... the capable one!!  This means that I tend to rush at