No much to report this week, I have spent as much time in the office as possible to avoid her.

This is her 2 week 'holiday', even though she is out of work now. She was going away to family but having fallen out with them all she is back at home. At least I am seeing the children who are being great. Who knows what they make of it all.

Father in law has ben staying this week as well to add to the fun, sharing a room with his daughter (ie stbx). Don't think that is quite normal and what do the children think? Daughter had the 'adult lessons' in phse last term so who knows?

Main issue has

I'm feeling rather sad. I'm back at work tomorrow after 7 weeks off with depression and feel quite apprehensive.

After weeks of yes/no yoyo my husband arranged for us to have a chat about getting back together. He cancelled 90 mins before our meeting saying he wasn't in the mood to chat but if I was feeling horny then he'd pop round.

I have so had enough and feel crushed. Why does he mess me about like this?

Why do I let him?

He's said me and the kids can stay in the house so long as i pay the bills and half the mortgage. kind of him!

I've decided that i'm going to step down from my job as a

Hi,

My first blog. Trying to determine where I am on my journey to sanity.

I accepted my marriage is over. That was not that difficult, I guess I did not love him for a long time and neither did he. But I will always maintain that the way he got out of this marriage was the most cowardly and selfish,  absolutely no consideration for his children. That is why I still wish he suffered and his new relationship did not work out. I know that is a negative feeling that is holding me back and hopefully , one day i will feel indifferent to what is happening with him.

I am very nearly accepting that