Well after my self administered kick up the butt it appears to have worked a bit. Writing down everything I have got compared to the downside of losing an idiot who has caused me more hurt than anything ever was great. Still hurting but it made me see life goes on. Shame I wasted so many weeks sobbing and unable to do anything, but I am made of meaty stuff and made the decision yesterday that I have a life to get on with. I know there will be tough days ahead and I accept that but I have a great life and it's going to get better. I know you wiki peeps here to help with the tough days, 19yrs

I am confused; it's not that difficult for me to be this way!

You see, when I was with my ex I was miserable, probably 80% of the time, and probably from about year 5, so for most of the time that we were together, well I thought I was.   Before we were married, our relationship was already over, I  knew that she wasn't the one for me,  don't know why I didn't have the guts to say so, would been less difficult then it ended up being, however I would not have had my angels!

All of my close friends are in long term relationships, and none of them are happy well if you look at it this way, they

well back from my holiday, and trying to keep things moving forward.. got the consent order giving me my right to the house proceeds and I am faltering and struggling.

Have forms to complete from the solicitor and forms to complete about the house sale,all needing to be done before house goes on the market.I am stalling, trying to find time to fill the damn forms in but just struggling with every day things at the moment.Keep feeling very tired and keep waking up at 4am, and then falling asleep early evening.

Today I was over at my parents and had to listen to how they and my sister never