I truley believe I have “killed” about 10 friendships on wiki and now will not log on, but only browse as a guest. Tonight being the exception to BEG FORGIVENESS in this blog. I had 10 days away from work and “took my eye off the ball” and became self indulgent “why me?.................... Having returned to work I now have “why us?” and “what next”? Additionally, son has decided to talk to “dad” about cost for driving lessons (about to increase), Theory costs etc.. (More why not me?) (I can afford costs – is this son “sharing”?) OMG! Why oh why has a “cost” needed to be

18 months on and I, like so many good Wiki Peeps, am still struggling to come to terms with the sheer destruction that the demise of my marriage has and continues to cause. Time may have moved on, but the children and I are still stuck. Stuck in this quicksand of divorce that is becoming like a huge black hole, sucking us into a never ending whirlpool of a journey of pain, turmoil and raw emotion. It is a tale of a love once shared, something stronger than any band of gold but now two strangers who are walking a tightrope of a fine line between love and hate. Where did it all go wrong and

Last night I lay in bed watching Tv - something my ex hated and would have a tantrum about regularly. As I was about to turn the TV off a film came off that I started to enjoy. it was called Music & lyrics and was exactly the kind of light fun film that my Ex would call "crap" and start storming and stropping about if I dared to continue watching after he had voiced his approval, especially since it was at "bedtime". Well i ended up watching it till gone 1am before going to sleep happily. I had all but given up watching films after being pretty much banned from watching anything I