Oh god, I just dropped daughter into town to go to fair and thought I drove past idiot and  woman, my god I never thought i would react like that. I turned car round and drove back past but it was just someone who looked very like him. The joys of living in such a small place. My body went ontp complete panic mode, I thought I was going to hyper ventilate or pass out, I was shaking and thought I was going to burst into tears. I am home and half hour later even though it wasn't him am still shaking like I have never done before. If they are still dating then I gotta accept I am some point will

Ok went out, nothing to do but thought go into town to mooch. I am losing it, every woman I see I wonder is that her? If she is walking around with a young teen girl I almost stop and try and hear if they refer to any names? The barmaid has 13yr old daughter (I know tart and tarts daughters names). Please tell me other have felt like this and I am not going fruit loop. I just need to know what she looks like, who she is, what she is.

Idiot texted me, I am obviouslly in bad mood, see above paragraph, so gave him the f**k off text back (more words but same message). Wanting him to crawl and

I have decided to write my emotions down as they are just so stupidly differing sometimes from hour to hour let alone day to day.

Today I woke up at 4am and wanted to smash his face in, I also want to smash the barmaids face in. I have no family thanks to her and he is a cheating liar.

Last night he told me by txt that his uncle had died, someone I have known for 18 years, and actually spoke to more than he did. By TEXT?????? I tried ringing but he wouldn't pick up, texted saying he would call this am. Then my head starts running away. He said he was going to the pub with Clive, surely if he