I have decided to write my emotions down as they are just so stupidly differing sometimes from hour to hour let alone day to day.

Today I woke up at 4am and wanted to smash his face in, I also want to smash the barmaids face in. I have no family thanks to her and he is a cheating liar.

Last night he told me by txt that his uncle had died, someone I have known for 18 years, and actually spoke to more than he did. By TEXT?????? I tried ringing but he wouldn't pick up, texted saying he would call this am. Then my head starts running away. He said he was going to the pub with Clive, surely if he

for the first time in days the sun is shining !!

feels like its been a few really bad days............work, home etc etc.........

so Mr Blogman and wiki pals.......lets try and have a good day yes ??

 when the suns out the world seems like a better place   ;-)

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Well, here is my first blog entry. It's difficult to know where to start. When I introduced myself I said that I am coping on a practical level but not emotionally. Well,  today I let myself down because I had one last shift at work before 2 weeks holiday & I burst into tears 10 minutes before I was due to leave home & phoned in to cancel. I haven't missed a shift since I returned to work (a week after my husband left) & I took myself by surprise. I think I'm just so tired of holding everything together & the thought of the final shift was ‘the last straw'. I think that part of what