Thanks to all of you that have used the word Eloquent to describe my blog. I think I know why I'm like it.

I was educated, of course, but because my Dad buggered off at the time of my exams, the results were pretty poor.

I've always thought it nicer to punctuate properly. So that's how I write.

But this blog is different. I'm not just writing things down, I'm explaining things. And it's always been key to me to explain things properly. Get it right first time. Make yourself understood. There can be n0 questions. I've explained myself so that you can understand.

Now, that is something above my

I've woken up today and felt a wave of desire come over me to "Write It Down".

 You see, nearly a year ago something happened in our house (which I'll write about later).

 In my eyes, what happened was, well - extra-ordinary.

So upset by it was I at that time, I took myself off to the doctors. I had been meaning to go anyway, I'd been feeling low up until that point anyway and needed to chat with someone about the levels of my drinking that had been rising.

 I suppose like all qualified people, she did something quite clever. Of course the drinking is a bad idea, but what's important is what's

Well after 3 days walking the legs of the dog I'm not sure what I have achieved.

I have never felt so lonely as when I walked along the deserted beach with beautiful views of sea on one side, hills on the other and tears pouring down my face. Yesterday was a very bad day but today I have resolved to be stronger and push on.

Time away may be helping my family but the mind continues to race as far as I am concerned.

I text and talk to the kids as much as I dare - trying to act as everything is normal!!!!

However I have made some decisions I am now not going to use the W word from now on it's to