This wiki entry is not designed for replies. It is made purely to serve as a reminder of an event.

It contains a description of a moment in time that has happened which, for me, I need to write down.

The feelings that surround the event cannot be described in text, and so extracting what you will from this content, and pre-judging my situation, will only serve to encourage you to enter negative comments, and I would respectfully ask that, if that is your intent, please read but do not comment.

I have, rather disrespectfully, always described dancing with my wife as like “…pushing a wheelbarrow

Today was a very sad day.  One of my friends from our village was buried this morning and the village church was full for his memorial service.

 A man of huge intellect and knowledge on any subject you could imagine.  He is such a  loss to us all.  He died in a shooting accident almost two weeks ago.  The church was full with I suppose 200 - 300 people from the various parts of his life.

He leaves a wife and two sons who are strapping fellows.  And he leaves us all missing him.  It is never right for a father to be burying his son.

His death was accidental but to wiki people who are feeling

What is it with these emotions? I have just spent the last few weeks feeling positive about the future, when suddenly today I wake up flat, empty and numb. It is bewildering. There has been no crisis or legal wrangling; no contact problems or emotional manipulation. Just me.

I think I might prefer anger or anxiety (not sure it's true, but today I do think that). You can see what you're up against then; they have substance, something to oppose. This feels like fog closing round me; I can't see where it has come from or where I will emerge. My goals have disappeared and there is nothing to rant