I've never done this before. I've joined a forum, found and uploaded a picture and now I'm doing this! I've done so many things since my life was turned upside down last July, most of which I'd rather not have, like given a solicitor £3000 in exchange for a decree nisi and a tree's worth of pointless letters, like cuddling my kids and telling them it's alright and we're fine when I'm not coming close to fine.

One thing that strikes me is that there is so much pain. You get lost in it and end up believing it's just you - life certainly kick's you when you are down. It all just happens and you

.....................I WILL stop crying!!!!!!!

I am waiting for that day.......jeeeez.... just one whole day without bursting into tears at the most inappropriate times....

Went back to work on Monday after a weeks hols..... "how are you?".... that's it - away I go!!!!!

The strange thing is I am not a 'crying' sort of person.... and I usually pretty much 'just get on with it'..... this feeling is totally alien to me....

Walking around the supermarket the other day....there they were again.... walking down the frozen food aisle.... tears (jesus, where did that come from!!!!)

I don't like this

it was a waste of time.she barely had time to talk to me before sheperding me back out of the door.Might have to look at mediation next.I'll be damned if I'm giving into his demands.They're my kids.Where has he been for the last year when they've cried themselves to sleep or shouted abuse at me because of what he's done to