My daughter has just told me the reason her father only sees her every 4-6 weeks is because he knows it upsets me when he comes round. BULL! I have only ever smiled at him when he comes round. The reason i don't like him coming round is because he tells me all the things him and the OW have been doing and all the things he does for her and her children, but i would never say anything to him i just smile. In the 22 months he has been gone he has not taken the children anywhere and only invites them for dinner on special occasions. Easter he never got in touch at all, they were probably

It's one of those days. Strangely I cannot define how i'm feeling. I don't know how that is possible. Usually one can say they feel happy, sad, angry, or whatever. I guess this is being numb. Perhaps all of me is shutting down to regroup for the next roller coaster. I felt the need to just sit down and write...something. The stbx and I had a good talk a couple of days ago. All of me wants to trust him and what he said he will do to help me get out of here. When he actually talked to me, all feelings of what I wish I could have done differently came rushing in. I feel like it's going to take

Well, it's a very grey, windy and wet day here and I'm lying on bed writing this. My girls are happily playing (one with the hamster the other on her Ipod)and I'm feeling a little down, again!! My husband went to see his solicitor on Thurs. having received the court petition and I was hoping he would see sense and be prepared to discuss living arrangements. Silly me!! He's mentioned mediation (sensible I know), but we've tried one meeting - total waste of time.Anyway,where has he been for the past four months?!! Dragging his heels and unwilling to talk. So, we're all doomed to be living