And things still don't feel any better!

Have made the step of contacting a counsellor, and have an appointment for next week. In the meantime, he has been emailing me again, saying that he's sorry and he wants to make this 'mess' (his words) as easy to sort out as possible.

Nice to know that the the last 9 years of my life have been reduced to a 'mess' that he needs to sort out as quickly as he can. That makes me feel really great. I still cannot understand how one minute everything's fine and he's texting me every morning saying he loves me and to have a good day, to this....

He says he cares

I'm finding life difficult since yesterday, not sure if my anti-ds are to blame but i just feel so very down & cry all the time. I'm tired & don't feel like talking to anyone on the phone either. Even typing in here is hard work tonight.

I'm hoping that a good night's sleep will make me feel better & tomorrow will be a better day, i know it can't be any worse so thats a