Lately ive just felt so so alone and dont know were to turn for help ive got no real friends my kids but im sick of putting on them they have there own lives. I dont want to go on meds i just want to find friends idealy would like to start work applied for 10jobs still waiting for crb coming through i just feel at the min i just want to go to bed and not wake up dont want to end my life just dont want to wake up, these feelings i have are pure loneliness people keep saying im strong im not im the softest person going i cant even hate him i love him so much and if he came bk i would take

Sorry wiki friends, this is likely to be a rant about …………well almost everything! Every night around 11:30 / midnight, my internet connection crashes, let’s me back on the crashes again and so the cycle repeats until I get fed up and just power off! I usually also have Facebook open chatting to family in Aus and Dubai. It makes me seem to be so rude when in chat / on messenger! Is it just America waking up and sensitive thing that my PC is, it can’t cope? I delete my browsing history daily, to reduce clutter on the hard drive, but it still has little effect. I no

just coming out of a down spike emotionally. its always triggered by monthly hormones which seem to wash my head full of memories. just the turn of his head. trips out. Holidays. Him in the house are usually full of memories of his temper and bad black moods but we had such great times out and about. I miss that. i miss being stuck in and I miss not being able to go to all the places I want to go to. I had discussed going to Camp bestival with him 2 years ago - we decided not to go that year as i would be 8 months pregnant but we had mentally planned it in for the future - then he left.