Was in chat but needed to offload even more emotions. God this writing is so helpful. Currently feel sick, stressed but can't put a label on the emotion. I was glad my friend came over, she is 10mths down the road of the end of a 4yr relationship and found out he was a cheater so she was so awsome to have over. She isn't going out and we have decided to go out together at least every few weeks. I was just worried she would tell me to shut as as I am sure people are bored with me whining but she isn't, she said I was there for her. She is awesome.

He still hasn't rung, he texted as he wants to

I have decided to write my emotions down as they are just so stupidly differing sometimes from hour to hour let alone day to day.

Today I woke up at 4am and wanted to smash his face in, I also want to smash the barmaids face in. I have no family thanks to her and he is a cheating liar.

Last night he told me by txt that his uncle had died, someone I have known for 18 years, and actually spoke to more than he did. By TEXT?????? I tried ringing but he wouldn't pick up, texted saying he would call this am. Then my head starts running away. He said he was going to the pub with Clive, surely if he

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well had to talk to him today !!! had loads of tears...(not that he knew though)mainly because of insurance for H....my car.....well im saying shes mine, she is in his name but  tell you something Mr B she is coming with me !!  need to get something out of this shitty marriage....

Ok so let me explain  H's insurance I thought was out since December so panicked as I have her not him...as in beep beep ex...emailed him he didnt respond emailed him again and he responded with guess what ??? ok here goes his (im fuming and upset) email

"Hi you !! not heard from you for ages