Went for a long run last night, longer than I've ever run before. I put my running shoes on opened the front door, turned right and set off not knowing where I was heading, how far I'd go, how long I'd be out and how much I could sustain my running for....... For a lot of the run I can lose myself in thinking of the next race and the challenge I've set myself and which road will I run down next but then its only a split second away from my thoughts turning to all the horrible things my stbx has done, the lies, the cheating, the pain and I'm now running angry with thoughts swirling around my

I feel numb as far as not wanting to beg him back or talk some sense into him. I want to run as far away from him as I possibly can. I am stuck here until May and i'm not sure I have the strength to do so. I'm not sure I have the strength to start my life over when I get to my new destination. I just want to LEAVE today. I'm so angry with him. All of his false promises. How could he do this to me and act all calm and collected. Walking past me like i'm some stranger. My whole world has been turned upside

I'm so angry. I don't want revenge. I just can't wrap my mind around why he married me and then four months down the road want's a divorce? No work or effort. Not even a warning from him. How can he do this to me? How can he just shut his feelings off? My idea of marriage is- til death do us part. His is-I can always get a divorce. Does anyone respect marriage