well it is now officially my wedding anniversary, as the decree absolute is till not through, so I have decided to blog about how far I feel I have come in the 11 months since we split.

I have gone through turmoil,anger,hurt,rage,pain,sadness,tears, crying myself to sleep,dispair and self doubt I would ever feel right about anything again.

Looking back to this time last year when I would have been sitting in a restaurant,with my nice fancy card with sentiments written in and wondering why on earth he felt he had to write things and choose me the soppiest romantic card and assure me he loved me

Good morning (or afternoorn or even evening, depending on when this is read) to my Wiki Blog, and all who read it.

I have a little confession to make. I feel a guilty today, really guilty.

The thing is - last week I joined up, and I seem to have done nothing else other than to slate off one person. My wife.

Now, don't get me wrong, there were no untruths whatsoever in what I wrote, and part of me feels that she deserves a bloody good dressing down, but I don't think I once mentioned any of her good points.

So, now's the time to redress the balance. To set the record straight so to speak, and,

In replying to a blog today it reminded me of the letters I wrote to my stbx which I never sent.  I found the emotional stages in a book and they were stated as being;

 SHOCK, ANGER, PAIN, HATRED, GRIEVING, HEALING

The letter idea was from the healing stage - a letter to your partner expressing some of the emotions you have experienced. Should be written, not to be actually sent. Imagine that everything you write is heard and understood the way you want it to be. 

ie.I feel angry because ...... I feel so angry when ...... I don't like ...... I wish ..... I feel sad because ..... I feel afraid