Well, on Friday I received the decree absolute, so that's it now. What a weird feeling, I desperately felt like I needed to go out and not be at home by myself, but then realised that would have been for her benefit, to show that I'm not a saddo all alone. Until I'd opened the post I had plans for all sorts of chores so tried to nuckle down and do those.

Seemed to feel ok by Saturday morning and have just tried to get on with my life. Until today. As I was driving out of the supermarket I saw what I thought was her car. For some reason I slowed to look and she got out. I breifly spoke to her

well blog mish was right !! after leaving here last night i went on a major downer...

at 9.27pm last night he txt me to say he had just heard from his mum that one of our cats (the oldest one) wasnt well..i told her wednesday of last week !!!!!!!! and could he come round and me them all and of course me.....and he wanted to come round tonight tuesday...i simply replied back no sorry am going out. he then replied ok when, which i ignored.

he emailed me at work saying that as i hadnt contacted him he wanted to come round to pick up some things, i said no not convenient i was out, he then

I thought i had been doing so well, and as they say time is the greatest healer, but today something just snapped and i feel so angry and low. There was this stupid driver on the road, and cut a long story short we had words, when i got home i just felt so down. All the feelings and bottled up for such a long time surfaced, i thought of my ex, what a sh*thead he was, how he was merrily getting on with his life with his new woman, and seeing the kids whenever he wanted to, having the best of both of everything, then he still has the audacity to call me names for no reason, when it was he who