I have been married for 17 years. Have three children aged 16,15, and 10. After 13 yrs of marriage I found out that husband had an allegation of rape. He did not tell me I found out from a letter from court. He was convicted and sentenced to six yrs in prison. I looked after my kids by myself.He promised me hes a changed man and apologised everyday for putting me through this. I accepted his apology for kids sake and even took kids to visit him in prison regularly. Soon after his release he started being secretive and taking kids away without my permission. I had seen a solicitor and after he

 

Oh dear, oh dear,

 

What a bad couple of weeks I have had! Isn't time supposed to be a great healer?  

 

I have been bombarding the ex with calls and texts I even sent one to her new fellow!!! I told her on Wednesday that she was the first person I loved and was now the first person I have hated.

 

A few weeks ago I was happy had not spoke or seen her at all during that week, I have now decided to delete her number from my mobile phone along with her new fellows number as well!

 

They say you have to forgive someone in order for them not to have a hold on your life - I don't think I will ever be

 

Today when I collect my children, I am told by my ex that they have been naughty and that their punishment is a week without TV, DVD's, PSP's etc.

Ok I think not so hard it's not my weekend and I have to feed bath and put them to bed in the next two hours, and we won't have much time between these things. 

However my children are very sad, and during our limited time together I sense this, my son, aged 8 and a really good, honest, caring child turns to me and says that my ex's new bloke has threatened him that if he is naughty that he will take his trousers down and smack him on his bottom. I