Had to send the kids off with "them" earlier 2 hrs late I might add, now i'm trying to keep busy and stay positive. Climbed into the ironing and put on some music. Baaaad move!!!! Everthing has just come flooding back and I don't know whether to sit and cry like a baby or rant and rave at  the audacity of their month old love affair with themselves.

It's all about their hppiness and them moving on, not worrying an iota of what it's done to the kids or me.

Now I'm angry with them but in five minutes who knows what I'll feel.

I just want his to

My wife and I have been together 8 years, married 7, happiest times of my life (or so I thought). Then I found out she had an affair with my"best friend", and moved out for six months, leaving me with our 2year old daughter. When that went pear shaped she came back, sorry for the mistake and we were going to make it work, but of course it had been my fault for driving her to him as I wasn't giving her the love and attention she deserves.

Then she went to South Africa to get her son and stayed 3 months and had another affair with some guy down there, 'cause again I'd been negleting her needs,

Dear Blog

It's been 5 weeks since my last confession, but I just haven't had the will to blog, chat etc.

I have been on to browse, and keep up with how people are doing though.

It's got something to do with not wanting to wear out my welcome, ‘cause I'm still in the same place I was 5 weeks, 6 weeks, 7 weeks ago, and don't want to bore people with my lack of movement on what's happening.  In fact, I'm in worse place now than I was three months ago when I found everything out, and she moved out.

It still occupies my every waking hour, the what ifs, the whys and all the other crap.  Her? Well