I am really upset and scared.

 My daughter told me today that her father rang her on Thursday night.  He was abusive and used foul language.  He told her not to go the place he is living or she will never see him again.  (she went last Wednesday but he wasn't there)  He blamed everyone including her!!

She hung up and he rang back 5 minutes later with more of the same.  She said he was very drunk and was crying at the end. he promised to go and see her today but threatened if she told me she would never see him again.  Of course he didn't turn up.

I am seriously worried about his mental

Hi all.

had to get my thoughts down tonight.

been in floods of tears, just started falling and cudnt stop them, and im usually so stong and together, feels like its not really me.

got email froms sols today saying the affidavit I had done for deemed service had been accepted, (had to do this as he wudnt sign the acknowledgment).

so this is really happening. I feel really sad, and lonely and lost. and the tears fell, tears for the loss of my past life, and fears for the future one.

I am strong, I have coped with loads during may marriage, miscarriages, 2 prem births, house repo, bankruptcy, and

Am back again for a moan.  My friend and her daughter were out for dinner tonight and who walked into the restaurant but my ex and his mistress.  She gave them some verbal abuse and then immediately phoned me.  I contacted my sister who managed to catch up with them and also gave them some abuse.  Feel like crap now that I know she is here and they are openly flaunting their relationship.  Aaaahhhh I hate him why did he have to do this to me and the kids.  I can't believe he is still managing to get to me.  I feel so