Its been a while since I last blogged as I'm trying to keep myself busy.  This helps me to get through every day and can be a distraction but I do feel very tired by it all.

 

My partner has left me for someone else - a friend of ours - and my self esteem has taken a bruising.  However, I went out last night with some people I hardly know and had a really good time.  I thought about what to wear and made an effort getting ready and although the prospect was daunting and I was nervous at first I met some really nice people and had a good time chatting.

 

My partner and I were together for 15 years

First, I want to answer some comments made in my previous blog entries.

Over analysing… OK, very probably I over analyse on almost all situations. The thing is, when you’re living the bad dream, then it’s so easy to try to work out every situation to its’ last nut and bolt.

So, if I’m bugging you by that, I’m sorry. I do take it on board, and I do know it’s happening, but for me this blog is my therapy. I will refer, even print off, all of this for use later. I need to be precise. Get it right.

Next, I’m coming into the Chat Room soon. Thing is, as a “work-at-home” dad, the kids are around, so I

Well no champagne picnic tomorrow, he has booked a golf lesson and then going for beers, in the pub she works at on sat. Didn't even bother to tell me tomorrow was off.  Last night it was still on, I had texted him about arrangements, he said nothing about not coming. God when he brought daughter back I really wanted to be violent towards him.

I think he had the hump and is getting at me as just after he got here my oldest daughter's boyfriends dad had just arrived to pick him up. s2bx always was ignorant when we had visitors and often didn't speak to them and I think he got the grumps today