Oh dear, oh dear,

What a bad couple of weeks I have had! Isn't time supposed to be a great healer?  

I have been bombarding the ex with calls and texts I even sent one to her new fellow!!! I told her on Wednesday that she was the first person I loved and was now the first person I have hated.

A few weeks ago I was happy had not spoke or seen her at all during that week, I have now decided to delete her number from my mobile phone along with her new fellows number as well!

They say you have to forgive someone in order for them not to have a hold on your life - I don't think I will ever be

Today when I collect my children, I am told by my ex that they have been naughty and that their punishment is a week without TV, DVD's, PSP's etc.

Ok I think not so hard it's not my weekend and I have to feed bath and put them to bed in the next two hours, and we won't have much time between these things. 

However my children are very sad, and during our limited time together I sense this, my son, aged 8 and a really good, honest, caring child turns to me and says that my ex's new bloke has threatened him that if he is naughty that he will take his trousers down and smack him on his bottom. I

This blogging seems to be very therapeutic. I was really encouraged by the three replies to my first blog, SOMEONE OUT THERE CARES. I would like to reply to the people who commented below

 Marriaa

Thanks for the comments, I am sure that you are correct in that the emotions one experiences come in different orders for different people, sorry to hear that you are having to cope with loss at the moment, loss is a difficult emotion to deal with as there does not appear any way to channel the emotion into something / somewhere positive. I will certainly join chat, although I often have difficulties