I have not put anything on here for sometime .....but heard some news today that temporarily delivered me back to a dark place. I heard my ex wife is getting married. I didnt flinch (physically)when I heard the news .....but when I walked in the door this afternoon it hit me all over again. I dont see or hear from her and haven't for getting on 18 months but all the hatred and the anger rushed to the surface. But whilst I may feel anger and hatred, I dont feel hurt or pain anymore. You can do nowt else to me now ex wifee!In the words of a song i heard this morning 'You're just somebody

Having has a so so morning doing some first aid training which was good at keeping my mind off things followed by a so so afternoon at work why all of sudden does anger have to take control my mental state....... Thoughts of revenge if you can call it that by contacting various friends of stbx to let them know she's not exactly the sweet innocent woman she makes herself out to be who's been so unsupported and run down by her miserable other half, me....... Why was i so miserable myself maybe because it felt a bit like i was stuck in rut while she was getting ahead, maybe it was just

So I didn't sleep Thursday night and worried all day yesterday waiting for THE LETTERS to arrive from his solicitor, they didn't. His copies have arrived in the post this morning, I took them into the kitchen and told them "YOU ARE NOT GOING TO SPOIL MY WEEKEND WITH OUR SON", I have placed them face down on the side so I cant see the post mark and they can't talk to me everytime i walk in the kitchen (I know what your thinking but every time you see a letter from a solicitor it talks to you only bad things). Stbx is at work until Sunday night, its me and the boy and he is going to a party