had another sleepless night, why is it things always look worse in the wee hours?

Haven't felt too good eitheras have had a nasty cold).

Just started thinking all about how he lied and cheated and felt so alone.I just want to stop thinking these thoughts and get over what has happened and move on,but am struggling, really struggling to do so.Its been a year now, and I have got used to living alone but when am I going to adapt to this feeling of being lied to and abandoned.Ifeel so cheated out of my future, we had done 27 years together, had that counted for nothing.Looking back over photos I

I woke up today & decided enough was enough!! I wasn't going to take anymore emotional abuse from my stbx or listen to anymore of his lies about his OW. I decided to block his number on my mobile & now he cant ring or text me again.

I then read online in an article that it helps to get over an ex if you write down all the pain they've caused you over the years, and to list all the things that you didn't like about him too. Well, i did just that, took me awhile actually as there WAS a lot in 16 years!

Well, the task of writing it all down & reading it back made me really really angry at him. I

Well today I found out what I have been looking for these last few months - evidence that my wife is indeed still in contact and very much in love with her "ex" boyfriend. (for those of you not familiar with my situation - wife has affair and says its all over but here we are 3 years later and it's still on - we are planning divorce in a couple of years anyway when she wants to be 'on her own').

 Anyway, I am half 'calmed' by what I found and yet half distressed. Today I found around 5 or 6 texts to and from one another saying how much they have missed each other over the summer and how