So, where to begin...

I suppose I could refer you all to back to first blog item, but need to get it off my chest.

Since her (second) return from living with another man my wife has been adamant that she had broken off all contact with him, even when questioned directly.

Last night was the latest occasion. Well guess what - she left again today and confirmed via text message that she was indeed back with him, living in another house. Kids are still with me, for which I am forever grateful, but I know she wants them to stay with her. They idea of my children being in a house with someone who

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 Just seen her in the street.  Not a care in the world, but then she won't have will she.  It's not jealousy now, it's the fact she and he have put my children through so much.  I had a real wobble.  I was only driving past, what am I going to be like when I walk past her? He won't be telling her what how the girls aren't coping, she will just be told, I 'm neurotic and won't leave him alone and want him back.  Apart from yesterday, all my contact with him has been about the girls.  They had a realy sticky patch last week that did need sorting, he couldn't get his addled brain

As my ex cheated, I was only thinking about that damege.

But as I started to calm down and be able to talk about my marriage to my close friends, I realised a few things which I could not notice.

My ex was a cheater, but (or because of that) he was extremely posessive and jealous person. For example, it was really childish of him but I have a favourite band who's singer is very good looking and I was listening them often. But since I started to live with him, I was unable to do so as he got really moody. It was also the same when I watched any films which my favourite actors were in them. When