i have woken up this morning feeling different. its hard to explain how very positive feelings for the future, maybe some thing has `clicked` in my brain. my son came in last night he wanted to show me something on facebook, before i could reply he had a video up taken on OW phone posted on ex step daughters face book page of `them` having a wonderful boxing day at the exs mums house.( my ex isnt my sons father, but i must say his father has been very supportive, ) my lovely son has been searching for stuff about them and he never told me. he s only 13 and i think this has affected him far

So, things have been going pretty well of late. I'm mostly enjoying living on my own in my house where I can decide exactly what & what not to do. I am also in a nice relationship with a good man. I'm ready to get divorced now - don't want to be ex's wife anymore. I still get sad from time to time, mostly about what a waste it all was in the end. I don't hate him but don't love him either. We still have some financial stuff to sort out - mostly relating to getting me removed from the joint mortgage - can't believe how hard this is to do but something about the FMH now being in

18 months on and I, like so many good Wiki Peeps, am still struggling to come to terms with the sheer destruction that the demise of my marriage has and continues to cause. Time may have moved on, but the children and I are still stuck. Stuck in this quicksand of divorce that is becoming like a huge black hole, sucking us into a never ending whirlpool of a journey of pain, turmoil and raw emotion. It is a tale of a love once shared, something stronger than any band of gold but now two strangers who are walking a tightrope of a fine line between love and hate. Where did it all go wrong and