only me again just like buses all at  once !!!!

strangest day today need to finish off building work at family home while she on hols  walked into house and felt really weird the house ive been renovating for 18yrs on and off youknow between having enough time and money didnt feel like my home anymore !!!!

which i think is a good thing but grrrrr hav to finish it !!! still a friend told me the sooner i get it done the better  and their right  because then i can sever all links then !

does make me sad tho all the blood sweat and tears  i phiysicaly put in to the house and then having to walk

Wow, totally winded now. How thnigs can change in a few hours. He texted a few times and then rang. Ooops he changed his mind again. No reconciliation, just friendship and sex on offer. Actually forced him to talk about barmaid and he now say they friends, mentioned re' all his friends thought they were a couple, he denied it again. He is feeling hard done by as he says it's alright for us women as we keep the family home, kids etc etc but the poor blokes lose everything. AWWWWWWW someone pass him a tissue. He said he would have to find someone with a home as he hasn't got one of his own now,

Well, the loneliness is still there but the depression is clearing. I am now managing to work and to focus on a solution instead of drowning in the glooms!

I have decided to move to London to put some distance between me and my ex. If I don't, then she will continue to torture me and reel me back in every time it looks as if I am moving on. The downside is that I will be a long way from my children. But I can't stay here! My life is in London in every way. I know people there for one thing! Also, I can get my career back on track as it was all but destroyed when my ex started her internet