I am sinking and I am sinking fast. Why can't someone throw me a lifeline?

I can't fight this any more. God, I don't mean I am about to give up on life, my children mean too much to me to ever contemplate such a thing; but I just can't fight it any more. Feel like just letting him win.

What else does he want from me? He has my self-respect, my self-confidence, my self-esteem and my self-belief, what else do I have left?

I have a house that I cannot afford, with little equity and a huge mortgage. I am struggling on the crap settlement I received. Whilst I go into yet further arrears on the

It has been about a fortnight since my last blog and i think i may have jumped the gun!

I honestly felt that i could get through this and hopefully be happy one day but i'm sinking, i think that i have finally ran out of steam because i still cannot get rid of her from my thoughts.

Our situation is difficult because we run a business although recently she agreed to just come in part time (tues, wed, thurs) so she has an extended long weekends, every weekend (crafty cow) but i cant say anything because i suggested she take some time away!

On friday i had to speak to her on an urgent business

hi to anyone who is reading this

i joined last year,and found this site a comfort.theres a lot of new faces so hello!

me and x split last sep,and im fine about it,its the day to day things starting to get to me,he moved out in febuary which was huge relief,as there was violence and bullying going on,ive always paid mortage on own and all the bills,hes a waste of space who dont see it morally correct to contribute?its my wedding anniversary tomo and i dont no if i shd be sad or glad,sad of it wasnt meant to be,or glad that i got out of a shit marraige!maybe im pmt,the slightest thing i feel will