So we are into July, only 7 months on since she said she wanted out and we seem to have made no progress what so ever.  Nothing has been agreed except that we will communicate in writing via solicitors, I am still sleeping on the sofa and the children are just as confused.

Life seems to be very busy, lots of work and much to look forward to as well.  I am spending a lot of time with the children most evenings and weekends and yet I feel completely lost by it all.  It is still quite possible that I will be left only seeing the children one weekend a fortnight, hoofed out of my home and paying

Well have been reading the blog of my friends on here and it seems to have been an up and down week for most, so what I say is those of you at the top hope you stay there, the rest of use lets catch them up

I have been doing a lot of thinking ( Yes I can do that and other things at the same time) and I still can not figure out how do I get from thinking that the person I met all those years ago was my soul mate and now look at us?

When do we change, why do we change?

I still think I'm roughly the same person I was 10 years ago but with more knowledge, I will still say un PC comments, I will

My mind has been drifting back to when I was first married to my ex to be and all the plans we had for the future.  He was my soulmate.  He was the one who rescued me from all the nasty things in life - he protected me.

When we had our first baby, I began to feel complete and valid as a person.  Our baby seemed like a special gift from God because we were blessed - so it seemed.  With our second child our family seemed almost complete.  We went places, did things together as a family.  When I think back to those times it is very hurtful when I wonder how it all went so horribly wrong.  My