Dear Mr Blogman

So glad I can rely on you to be always here when I need to let off steam.  I phoned my s2bx tonite and could hear lots of music so he was obviously clubbin, but a strange woman answered and she wasnt very nice.

I asked who she was and she saidd she was a friend of mu husbands and who was I....she knew exactly who i was as im sure scumbag was right next to her.  I told her that i was his wife, to which she replied soon to be ex wife.  I asked her if she was now with him, she said that no she wasnt as was just a friend, I asked so why are you answering his phone, she said he had

I still haven't reached the anniversary of discovering my husbands affair.  That's still three weeks away, our tenth wedding anniversary is three and half weeks away!

It's been a very, very tough year and there have been many times when I really didn't think I would come out of it, but I have - almost!

There are still days of tears, but they are fewer than before.  I still miss my old life and wish I could turn the clocks back, but I am just beginning to discover a new life.  

I wouldn't say I'm living yet!  I'm existing for my children, but in doing that I am experiencing new challenges.  As I

Well, I have had quite an ordinary week.

Scumbag has apparently gone down to Cornwall to see his mum, and have his car MOTd (?) by his brother-my son reckons it would fail if he took it anywhere else! So, I have zero contact with him.

Sol has gone away for a week aswell-perhaps he has gone to see my stbx mother in law too-lol!!! So, I have had zero contact from him too.

If this is how life will be when the divorce is all finalised, then it isn't too bad. Not very exciting,but at least it isn't stressful and miserable.

I have had a couple of panics about how I am going to manage financially, but