Eigheen years ago to this minute I was a young girl getting prepared in my wedding dress  looking like a princess.  I was at home with my mum and dad and my family and preparing myself  to go and declare my undying love to him in front of everyone that mattered to us, for better, for worse etc etc ..... till death us do part. 

It was a hot and sultry day, my headress broke on the way to the church, the cake melted in the heat and the record we requested for our first dance was found to be scratched and virtually unplayable .... but it was a great day... the best.

 Today I am sitting in front

Well after my self administered kick up the butt it appears to have worked a bit. Writing down everything I have got compared to the downside of losing an idiot who has caused me more hurt than anything ever was great. Still hurting but it made me see life goes on. Shame I wasted so many weeks sobbing and unable to do anything, but I am made of meaty stuff and made the decision yesterday that I have a life to get on with. I know there will be tough days ahead and I accept that but I have a great life and it's going to get better. I know you wiki peeps here to help with the tough days, 19yrs

Morning Wiki family,

This is the second day in two days that I've woken up with a smile on my face and a feeling of well-being in my heart.   Alas I cannot say this is a result of Dan Carter being in my bed, (Mmmmm!!  Oh Er - sorry indulged in a little day dreaming there!)  No I'm not sure where this happiness has come from or why now, but suffice to say I'm enjoying it.

I feel it's probably a culmination of time, wiki support, and a bloody fair magistrate on Thursday.  Ok, it's a pain that I've lost my licence for a year, but it could have been so much worse.   When my solicitor told me I'd