I have wanted to update my Blog for a long while now and never found the words or the time to do so until now. But so much has changed in my life since that dreadful Christmas last year.

Those of you who remember my story from the beginning of this year will know just how bad Things were for me and what an utter mess I was and in at that time.For those who don't know its enough to say I was married for twenty years before discovering my wife who I loved very much was having an affair with the next door neighbour which is where she now lives.My Father died as did my daughters pets. So for me

Dear Blog,

 Just seen her in the street.  Not a care in the world, but then she won't have will she.  It's not jealousy now, it's the fact she and he have put my children through so much.  I had a real wobble.  I was only driving past, what am I going to be like when I walk past her? He won't be telling her what how the girls aren't coping, she will just be told, I 'm neurotic and won't leave him alone and want him back.  Apart from yesterday, all my contact with him has been about the girls.  They had a realy sticky patch last week that did need sorting, he couldn't get his addled brain

Just so I keep my soon to be divorced feet on the ground I got an e-mail from my solicitor. A bill for 500pounds.

The amount I have paid for a divorce I didn't want and a none financial agreement has always seemed a lot . However the british founder of the charity I'm earning earns just 1200 pounds a year. I have to date paid 2000 pounds for nothing at all. That can't be right can it ! It now feels imoral !I could have staid another 3 months for that! 

Today it's Eid, the Muslim festival to celerbrate the end of Ramadam .The children weren't in school so we took them to a lovely park on the