Hi All

For those that have met me, probably think im one big party animal but im not all the time, I still have feelings and still get very down.  Havent blogged for a while and yes I love to party really love it but we cant be party animals all the time!

 It all happened with me last Thursday and was saying to peeps how good I have been with no contact ect for 5 weeks and the rest.

That particular day got a bit silly as was having a clear out and came across some a remote control which I thought was his as well as some anniversary cards from our first wedding anniversary.

I texted him to ask

Havent blogged for a while, so thought an update was in order.

I am ok. Really enjoyed myself at Wikiween, nice to meet everyone, and realise that its not just me going through a tough time. Since Birmingham, I have been back to work, and caught up with all the stuff I left before half term when I had a bit of a breakdown and had to go home.

I am lucky that I have the children to concentrate on, and am focussing on being a good mum and continuing with the routines I have built up over the last few years. I am continuing to see the counsellor, and thats helping too.

I have also decided to stop

Firstly, may I apologise.

I haven't been in wiki for some weeks.

Before, people used to comment on my blog with very positive c0mments, and with all of the support and understanding I received, I felt strong enough to take life on by myself.

Silly me!

What I forgot however is that - people don't really change. Neither should they, I guess. I mean, I know my wife is very controlling, and that's the reason why we clash, but it's absolutely not my place to try and change her.

There will be, without a shadow of doubt, some man out there who doesn't look on her as being controlling. She is, for me