It is 6am, cant sleep, it'll be a week on monday, since he texted me that he has decided that divorce is what he wants. My life has kind of felt upside down since. Even though i knew it was a possibility.

My life in a nut shell.

Got married at 19, felt i had met the perfect guy for me. He was kind, sweet and full of promises. The strong silent type, that i felt will always protect me. In hind sight strong and silent was not what i needed.

After a year of marriage, cracks started to show, we both wanted different things. I wanted an education and went ahead to get one. He lived for the moment.

Hi it’s been a while since my last Blog I did start on several occasions but always something I needed to deal with came up .

On the odd few minutes I have spent here reading other peoples stories I’ve come to realise just how bad relationships can be and more so how cruel uncaring and downright nasty people can be in a relationship. I suppose to some extent I’m a little naive I read the stories in the news but somehow it just doesn’t seem real. Perhaps it’s because I’m at the opposite end of the spectrum to these people? perhaps its because to me if you love someone you show that affection,

Weds 20th feb 2008 , meet ex again at court he was nice and late bought that thing with him again.Felt we were in front of that judge for hours , nice to see he had to consult her about everything, hmmm i was once only his wife he never consulted me about nothing.Anyway thats the past me being with him,I'm glad i went to court on weds as seeing him again has released me from his spell i no longer have feelings for him only dislike which is good i feel i can get on with things now.Nice of him to say ladies first going in before the judge opening the door should of known he was only going to