It will be one year soon since I left my abusive husband...thanks to therapy and my good friends I'm doing unbelievable well...so why!?...why did I have nightmare about him last night (again)?...I think that I feel guilty about the way I left him...

I was trying to tell him for so long that I'm unhappy in the marriage...I was trying to get him to marriage counseling but he wouldn't go...I was getting more and more depressed...I felt like there is nothing I can do...nowhere I can go ...

One morning I left for work as usually...I got panic attack at work and I just never came back home after

It is 6am, cant sleep, it'll be a week on monday, since he texted me that he has decided that divorce is what he wants. My life has kind of felt upside down since. Even though i knew it was a possibility.

My life in a nut shell.

Got married at 19, felt i had met the perfect guy for me. He was kind, sweet and full of promises. The strong silent type, that i felt will always protect me. In hind sight strong and silent was not what i needed.

After a year of marriage, cracks started to show, we both wanted different things. I wanted an education and went ahead to get one. He lived for the moment.

Hi it’s been a while since my last Blog I did start on several occasions but always something I needed to deal with came up .

On the odd few minutes I have spent here reading other peoples stories I’ve come to realise just how bad relationships can be and more so how cruel uncaring and downright nasty people can be in a relationship. I suppose to some extent I’m a little naive I read the stories in the news but somehow it just doesn’t seem real. Perhaps it’s because I’m at the opposite end of the spectrum to these people? perhaps its because to me if you love someone you show that affection,