5pm Tuesday evening.

Negative thoughts disappear.

What had happened to me?what had I gone through?why could I not get out of that spiralling hell?

It felt at 5pm on Tuesday that I had been through something,that I had never been through before. So desperate had I been througout the last three days,that I just wanted these feelings to stop.I was saying to myself this can't be happening to me.But it all was....Suddenly I had to face the menace of the unknown and drawing pictures in my head of the hideous times that lay ahead.people without faces,single room dark,damp and smelly,moneyless

I like the idea that I write my blogs to make myself more positive and to see the path from where I have been mentally.For the last few days doubt and the feeling of failure have crept in to my life.This has affected me to such an extent that I have become paralysed.People say this is what happens,that the road is not straight,that there are lots of falls to overcome.When one is in this hole,it's difficult to see the way out....I shall start digging upwards and hope that my next blog is more

The day has been quite.

Normally I feel the need to get away from the house away from the situation.

I am just feeling like a passenger in a waiting room,knowing that in a short time I will have moved on...

Stayed up late last night in the chatroom.It helpes me to be with people with a common interest and talking about everything else too.Thanks