lasr night he txts me says he wants us to try again?

after all hes put me through i know i would be a fool to go back there.

i told him in a txt wud u believe, that i am done, after 22 years i am such a coward i cant tell him to his face. i feel really shitty for that.

but my decision is made, no going back.

i must be at peace with it because i slept really well.

so here starts my new life, on my

i have no idea where to start.

today i feel quiet positive. i dont want this, but i know i have to deal with it, just like any other problem i have faced, and there have been many. the thing is we always faced the together, now i have only myself to rely on.

this cant be that hard to get through. i want to detatch from my emotions and just deal with the problem.

How to do that when my life is in shred i have no idea.

i want my life back, i want to be in control, not have it controlling me.

i have to face upto what i have to do.

i know i want answers, but know i may never have them so i have to let