I do think I'm Alice in Wonderland. Trapped in a strange world and trying to find my way back to some kind of 'normal', if that really even exists. Last night, my stbx rang me with an update about our finances. He is keeping me posted just as I requested but I find talking to him rather unsettling. Last night's conversation was very strange. This man is beyond belief. I have been very civil, not nice, but civil. At one point in the conversation he told me that he hoped that we could be friends. I lost it and blurted "Are you f^%*(*g serious? I let him know that he didn't know the

It was his voice but it wasn't the man that was once familiar and loved by me. We discussed what needed to be discussed. I promised myself this time that I wouldn't bring up the past but in the end the desire to purge was too great. I calmly told him of the hurt and devastation he had caused by his selfishness. He didn't apologise and he didn't say that he still loved me or for that matter, ever loved me. He admitted that he still 'talks' to one of the OW but insists nothing happened (yeah and pigs fly). I asked him why he could invest his time 'talking or confiding' in this woman when I

These are the exact words my stbx said to me over the phone today. I haven't heard from him in nearly four months. I needed to talk to him about our finances as he has been dragging his feet. When I questioned him about the affair, he told me that he didn't have any affairs and that he didn't remember sending any texts. When I began to remind him of his texts and the number of times he rang OW he denied, denied, denied. He went on to say that IF he had sent any texts that they were just flirting and nothing happened. When I read them out to him he said "Did I write those?" I don't