Finding it hard today - tears are threatening and feeling really sad. Discussions now underway with regards to settlement, my name coming off the mortgage and dividing up things in the house. Don't want to be doing any of this and just wish I could close my eyes and all the hard parts to be over. Feeling very lonely and hate having to cope with all of this on my own. For all of the hurt and pain that he has caused me - I miss him very much and miss being able to talk to him. Sad, sad times. Please, please someone tell me that these feelings will pass soon - I am not sure how

So, here I am day 23 - still hanging in and hoping for things to improve. I have managed to find a flat share opportunity with a nice (I hope) lady. Small flat (not enough storage space for my shoes and clothes!!)but nice and comfortable. Beyond sad today as one of our beautiful and gentle friends passed away last night. He was diagnosed with luekemia but it wasn't the illness that took him. So we are not even at the end of January and life has heaped some sadness already. It puts things in perspective a bit though. As much as I am hurting now - I know that I will get better in

Not sure what to put in here. I have been using the forum and chat room to try to get some perspective on what has happened to me. Not sure that I ever really will but realise that there are many stages to this break up malarkey and I am in the very early stages. My focus at the moment is trying to find myself somewhere to live. Husband can afford to stay on in the house and keep it going - I can't. I wanted to try to rent somewhere for about 6 months until I can get my head around things and decide where to go from here. Quickly discovered that renting is a V. expensive option, so