Missing my son badly

I keep seeing other dads with their sons: playing football in the park, riding together on a motorbike or swimming in the sea. I miss my son desperately and hate that we are both missing out on each others company due to the spite of my soon-to-be-ex.

I have lived for the last 10 months in the south of france. During that time I have negotiated with her for him to be allowed to visit me three times, Xmas, Feb half term and most recently at Easter. Each time she has decided to veto the trip at the last minute. So to date he is yet to come and see me. It makes me mad when I think of him bored at home instead of having a great holiday with me.

She says she will not let him visit me until the court case over ancillary relief is over. That is just such a lame excuse. I have thought about going to court for contact several times but I don't have the money to fight a second court battle and in the end I'm not sure it s the right thing to do. My son is 15 and so I don't think I have too long to wait until he grows up enough to realise that what his mum is doing by keeping us apart is wrong.