I went to the hospital today for some physio on a sprained ankle, i didnt expect to feel the way i felt.  Hospitals have very sad memories for me.  Around two years ago i lost a baby, i was 20 weeks pregnant and went for a routine scan, i was all excited and was looking forward to the scan pic to show the kids.  I had a very rough pregnancy and spent most of it in hospital, as i did with my other children due to hyperemises, which is excessive vomitting, i need to be kept on a drip and have no energy at all, could just about manage to walk to the loo.  Anyway there i was in the scan room and

I thought i had been doing so well, and as they say time is the greatest healer, but today something just snapped and i feel so angry and low. There was this stupid driver on the road, and cut a long story short we had words, when i got home i just felt so down. All the feelings and bottled up for such a long time surfaced, i thought of my ex, what a sh*thead he was, how he was merrily getting on with his life with his new woman, and seeing the kids whenever he wanted to, having the best of both of everything, then he still has the audacity to call me names for no reason, when it was he who

My kids woke up extra early to give me my present, i knew what it was because the youngest gave it away yesterday, but i pretended i didnt have a clue, i unwrapped it, and they watched my face as i pretended to act like them when they unwrap their presents all excited, the main present was a foot spa, as they thought im so busy and so stressed at times i needed to unwind. Youngest told me how much it was and where from, the other two told him off! He just cant keep anything secret!

Their card was full of kind words but especially 'appreciate' how wonderful! they do appreciate me, they do