Its funny, all the kids are round but its not the same without her, kids say shes at a health hotel having a lovely day with new boyfriend, swim, saunas and friends.

I just cannot find a way to stop thinking about her, sounds like she's having a great time without me, moving on with her life getting herself in shape while I wallow in my sadness.

Kids seem to make it worse they all remind me of her and all merrily carry on with their days resigned to this is how it will be. Will I ever be free of this torment the constant need to contact her.

She's out of my life its over never to be the same

I thought I was doing well, puts some blogs here that helped, making house a home for the two kids with me, work picking up and I even joined a new gym (first one in 40 years). Life was getting better, not thinking, talking or texting the stbx.

Then as the words in a great movie "just as I was getting out, she pulls me back in"  

Get a text saying do you want to go for drink to talk about money, we are poles apart, nothing wrong with that I hear you say.

It was followed by "I have got a new card and pin from bank and cleared the account", these two sentences just don't go together. Contacted

I was having a good day today with my two youngest 13 and 15 who live with their mother since I moved out due to her affair, went to my parents for dinner. talking to my 15 year old asked what she did last night only to be told that she stayed in on her own and had a curry.

Thought she was going out with her mum, turns out mum and new boyfriend went to party at sports club and left her at home alone till 12. It was ok though because the new boyfriend kept texting to see if she was alright up to the point when he let her know they were getting a taxi back. One of the texts even said "Are u ok