Sunday night Monday morning.

Oh hum I had a bad evening at home, wife’s still living next door and I was not feeling particularly sociable towards her. She decided to try and speak to me, I was in my garage when she walked in being as nice as she could be, for once I just walked straight past her shut the gate and came inside without saying a word, looking in her direction, or even acknowledging she was there. Why I did it I don’t know I just didn’t want to have anything to do with her today. I cooked a nice meal of slow cooked Lamb shanks and all the trimmings no packet food here, I felt quite proud of my efforts when my daughter came home from her part time job and scoffed the lot. I cleaned up and said to my daughter “we have to tidy your room” she is seventeen and a typical teenager but it had to be done. I had cut her so much slack lately but when you can’t get in the door things have to be sorted. I also had it in my mind that I didn’t want her mother coming in and seeing that mess and telling anybody that we couldn’t cope without her, because we can. I knew that my daughter was heading for that emotional time of the month and something told me I was going too see her upset tonight and how right I was. Just me putting clean sheets on her bed was enough and bang out poured all the emotions she has built up about this whole sordid affair. She is beginning to see just what her mother has done to us. How much hurt and devastation she has caused to the family as a whole and even begun to realise who was the one who took her everywhere day or night, too and from school 15 miles each way, trips, friends, night outs, parties, stayed up half the night to bring her home safely, who cut the grass, cleaned the windows, made sure she had a breakfast before school, paid the bills, taught her to drive, took her horse riding and so on who made the effort? Me and that’s her words not mine. I didn’t want my daughter breaking her heart over what her mother has done to us but she did and it took several hours to stop her tears, she is in bed now as I write this tonight. I’m feeling pretty fed up that her mother is next door without a care in the world. It must be great to be care free wish I could be so callous and heartless it must make life so much easier for those that are that way inclined. I have said before in my Blog my stbx can shut her door and all her troubles are still over here in our home, with us and for us to deal with. I’m glad I blanked her today. . Monday morning Up bright and early made tea did the breakfast and my daughters packed lunch then just as we about to go to school, who is on the doorstep? Yes stbx blissfully unaware of the grief she caused last night. I blanked her again. Driving out to the school I was well aware that my daughter was still very upset and I had to be very careful how I approached any topic but we got there ok. I hope she feels better with her friends around her today. Now I have the whole day alone trying to find something to occupy my mind. But I needn’t have worried though as within 20 mins of getting home in wanders mother and father in-law who stayed for a cuppa and a chat just to make sure I was ok. They left, 5 mins later in came brother and sister-in-law same thing tea and a chat. It’s now ten past 1 and I wanted to post this in the morning no chance I’ve been to busy, great I’m having a good day today. Every time my Blog ends up so long, why???? Perhaps I should write a book. Mike