My wife and my ex best mate

Day 11, Its Sunday night and I am at home with my girls. They are both sound asleep and we have had a good day together. I have no idea where my wife is and although I wish I didn't care I do. Don't know why. The marriage is dead. My eldest was really upset when we got home because Mummy wasn't here. I said she was working to try to give her an excuse she would be happy with but she doesn't actually have a job. I think this part is only going to get harder. As I said though, we had a good day. I dropped off my youngest with My Mum and Nan and took my eldest swimming. That was great fun. She can't swim yet but I think soon she will crack it. My youngest is so adorable she makes me melt (actually thats the same for both of them.)After swimming it was back to my Mums and a big roast dinner. You can always trust your Mum to look after you. I had a good night last night. Got together with a big group of close friends including wife of exbest mate. They all feel hurt by what my wife and exbest mate have done. We have all be lied to and betrayed. Having said that by coming together last night it felt like no matter what they have done we will all still be good friends. Strangely we may even be closer because of it. This whole horrible thing really does make you appreciate your friends and I know both myself and the wife of exbest mate felt well loved last night. I even got a decent nights sleep last night. The first since this all started. Mind you I think the large quantity of red wine I drank may have helped here. I also spoke properly to my wifes parents today, This was hard but good. They are really kind people who have really taken me in and made me feel wanted. To lose them as my in-laws is just yet another blow. As I sit here alone, with the house all silent, I cant really work out how I feel right now. Part of me is really happy for the time with my girls and that they are all tucked up asleep with me looking after them. Part of me is so sad for them for the full seperation that is yet to come and how this will affect them. Part of me hates my wife and friend for what they have done, and part of me misses them, like you miss people who have died. Thanks for all your kind messages. They really make a difference.