Dear Blog, It's my 3 monthly visit and I am grateful for the chance to get things off my chest. The saying is true, 'Time is a great healer' but it doesn't stop you from feeling 'down' nor feeling like crap. I feel that my whole life is going around in circles and I do not possess the strength nor the courage to do anything about it. I am not going to repeat the 'history' of how and why I find myself in the position that I do - you can read my previous logs for that, but whilst the ex has now been gone for almost 2 years, the shadow that she casts across my life and that

Dear Blog, Here again after an absence of many months feeling the need to have yet another outburst! After some months of bumbling along, trying my best to get on with things and desperately trying to forget the ex, our paths look like crossing again and, whilst I don't like saying it, it won't be an enjoyable experience. My difficulties have continued with my disabled daughter to the point that things have escalated to various meetings with 'the professionals' (without a full resume, my autistic daughter will not attend school nevermind leave the house). I have got quite accustomed

Dear Blog,

I cannot believe that it's been almost 5 months since I posted an entry - sorry!

I would like to say that I have been so busy with positive changes in my life but, to be honest, not a lot has changed for me apart from one thing and that is acceptance of the situation that I find myself in.

My heart, I suppose, is still broken (does it ever heal?) from the day my ex walked out on me - almost 14 months ago now and not a day goes past without me thinking about her whether it be thinking about the 20 odd years we spent together or what could have been - I simply find that I can (mostly)