another week, a positive feeling.

well it is the start of another week, yesturday was 2 months since we split. Time is a great healer.I saw him yesturday and thought I really don't want to spend my life with you, I have had a lucky escape.He looks like a medalian man or Jimmy saville.. so pathetic.

I have found someone to take me to my check up in a few weeks at papworth hospital.My big sis, who I am grateful to.I didn't want to go on my own.

Spent today at the gym, paid for by him..enjoyed every minute because I know it is costing him money he would have spent on her.

He phoned today, and seems to ring me more than ever , when i wish he would just save it up what he wants to say when he comes to pick up the kids.He can't seem to get that I don't care about what he is up to, how his health or how it affects him. He wanted to split and so now I just wish he would give me the space and time to get on with my life.

My admirer has gone back home to where he lives, so I probally will never see him again, but it was nice to think someone still finds me attractive ,soon to be ex had knocked that out of me, mentally, and my self esteem was on the florr, but now I am fighting back, and treating myself when I can afford to and the exercise is lessening the stress I feel under.

I have to phone the financial mediators but that can be done tomorrow, today I feel positive and want to hold on to that feeling this week.