Top tune, up there with Alison and Olivers Army...
So the crash came. Again. Predictably. I couldn't sleep, every time I closed my eyes very dark alternate futures were being played out, the kids loving their new step-dad, her happy more than she was with me, the girls being taken away, her winning the lottery, me getting cancer (I must give up smoking) and a lot worse besides....this went on throughout the night.
I eventually got up exhausted I couldn't bring myself to go to work and found myself muttering conversations that hadn't happened and would never happen in solitude between shouting