Day before the end of a week off

I've been seperated from for nearly 7 months, I can't believe how the time has flown. I have really kept myself busy with great family, friends, my job, and the gym. There have been a couple of male related distractions but nothing to write home about.

When I think back to when we first seperated and then a week later our marriage was over, I didn't think i'd ever be able to get through this but I have. To be honest with myself, none of it was a major shock but I am left with a bitter taste in my mouth over how he thought he had pulled the wool over my eyes. If I let myself think about it I do get quite mad about it but most of the time keep it inside.

I haven't really thought about keeping a blog until today. I think this is because I have end of week/weekend butterflies before going back to work and was hoping to find people on here who are in a similar situation.

It's not easy because I don't knowanyone who has been or is in this situation. I have many great friend but they are all couples, which was fantastic whilst I was in a relationship but obviously not ideal now.

I have two single friends, who are lovely in their own way but I have always felt that we didn't have much in common and even less now that i'm single which is strange. I don't feel comfortable being single, I don't feel complete.

I didn't instigate the seperation from my husband because I wanted to be single but becuase I thought it would be a wake up call to address the issues that we had and try and sort them out. He obviously didn't want to but at the time I was beating myself up over it.

I realise that my thoughts are all over the place. I have never been really good at focusing on one thing at at time and more so now. This is so that I don't let myself procrastinate and ponder too much over things.