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Nov 05
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Not quite sure why not, to be honest.
I have things to say but can't summon up the energy to write them down. Maybe it's a lack of conviction as I seem to be a bit directionless at the moment. I guess this is another stage in the natural process and for me it was like this:-
1) Disbelief when I was told it was over
2) Confusion as to why, when, how, who
3) Anger at not being allowed to deal and sort it
4) Resignation at the inevitability of it
5) Despair at the loss of what used to be
6) Realisation that what was is different to what is now
7) Acceptance (partial) of the situation
8) Pain at the thought of her with another man
9) Anticipation of the new life
10) Excitement of new beginnings, new challenges, new relationships
11) Disappointment at the mundane nature of the new normal life
12) Realisation that life is just life, sometimes it sucks, sometimes it doesn't
So, ups and downs are the norm now then. Fine. Take the rough with the smooth.
I can handle that as long as there are both.
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Fat Boy Getting Slimmer
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| November 06, 2007 | ||
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Terribly confusing time. I think you did well to keep it to just a dozen items. Wishing you all the Best FBGS |
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apm
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| November 06, 2007 | ||
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It was heavily summarised and a considerably circular process, moving backwards and forwards between numbers. Still is, if I'm honest. |
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IFIKNEWTHEN
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| November 07, 2007 | ||
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ups and downs is the order of the day, i have never had so many emotions in one day as i have since the split. You wake up in the morning in a positive mood with which to face the day until the post arrives and there is a letter from the solicitor or a bill that you now can't afford to pay. Or the x2b phones to give you yet more hassle. You then put a smile on your face cos one of the children do something that you can't help but smile at. The evenings are the worst, can't watch tv as no longer have the ability to concentrate on the story line. You then go in wiki and everything changes, you are amongst friends, you don't need to put on an act as if everything is fine cos it isn't always the case. A song comes on the radio and opens the flood gates of your memories and the tears flow, sometimes of happiness others of times gone by and others of times you know are yet to come, sad times, angry times. Ups and Downs! | |
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