Another day and more depression.Woke up early after going to bed late as was unable to sleep.Woke up same way as I went to sleep ,crying.Pathetic aren't I?

This week and last has been a real drain on me, keep sleeping during the day and feeling unable to face things.Last weekend I got some escape from things as I went to stay with a friend and was kid free but comming back home here and having to face more stress is doing me in.I have forms from the council to fill in and my financial statement to prepare for for court..and now we have squirrels in the loft and a hole in the roof obviously..of

Woke up exhausted because last night I couldn't sleep, just felt very sad at what my life has become.So then after I got my son off to the school bus, I went back to bed and snuggled up with the cat for company.

My s2bx called, and was saying how do I know if he and his 'mistress' are still together , etc, they may not be, and he may have someone new etc.. started probing into while I had started the whole divorce proceedings ..etc etc.. its funny how he can make me feel its my fault the marriage has had to come to an end ..I told him I had no other option, he made it plain that he wasn't

well today I got a letter from the solicitors, giving me the date to our court hearing.Its July 15th, a few days before HIS 50th birthday.So now I have the delight of more form filling and chasing up information.I have to give my financial statement to the court.Also so does s2bx and I notice on the form has details of others like partner that has to be entered.So thats why he is saying he needs to move out and live on his own..!!It is all comming clear now as to what he intends to do, live on his own until the court thing is over so it looks like he doesn't have to give her income